Life is nothing but a journey of contradictions?! Agree? Don't agree? hahaha. When you want it real bad... it never comes... when u dont want it...it comes like one huge blow! bleahz. Irony? Have u eva felt this way... when u are at the bus stop waiting for like a particular bus prolly 17 and like Bus 19 keeps coming.. then the next day u are at the bus stop again and this time waiting for Bus 19 but it neva comes.. bleahz. ok duno if i am making sense but yea.. its something like that! haha.
Its like Life is UNFAIR, SELFISH.... I mean LIFE is like one whole "hypocrisy!" ....like... it gives u wat u want... but in the end... u become the "mean one" the one that makes someone unhappy and all.. I mean it sucks .. the feeling sure do... Haiz...
But I realised one thing... u cant have the best of both! You don't wanna hurt anyone. Not A not B not urself... but LIFE is such! U have to. IF not u be the LOSER! ( in caps i stress) . U try sooo hard to put others in ur shoes but it just doesn't fit! They just dun comprehend u! U the bitch u the meano! bleahz. u the one who put him thru all the pain.. and when he goes playing himself u feel all fucked.. ahhh..
And then again.. U got an angel on the other side... making ur day everyday... its like bliss! =) And ur smiles and lafters make his day... and all.. but if u gonna appear all gloomy! He's gonna be feeling soo lousy?!
So wat do U do now? ..............*caught in a dilemma*
I know you are nice and all.. You have been there for me wheneva i needed someone and u are a reason for me being strong and all.. Everytime i wanted to fall and break and shatter u put me together.. and held me strong with ur words.. just ur words.. How can i be such an ingrate? i dun wanna lose u either. I dun wanan lose any of U! Gawd...
Life is full of options. Dun be just fooled by one. Like the saying goes.. there many fishes in the sea... u never noe wch is the best! So stop feeling all blue and down in dumps.. it wont help u! Not like wat u saw is HOT FUDGE CHOCO CAKE!! tat u cant resist. (strictly for choco loouuvers!---> for a deeper inpact) AND i am sure "secret recipe" and "starbucks" have diff taste! I am sure if u dun have starbucks u will make do with secret recipe....
Then again i aint sympathizing nor anything... Just feel broken and all.. DUn think i am in bliss and i am pretencious of all this emotions. Piling 'em of is nono so yea.. i blogged! I am sure ... u can go on and all... But forget me not!
ps: pardon me if i sound offensive. sorrie! and for those who dun get it.. dun bother. i crap alot and its like 3.08am... waiting for chelsea and pool match...
btw to that someone.. it aint crap!
so take me away
